You’re the compromise that never falls through
It started with a handgun loaded with excuses I started faking it And then we started breaking it All the pieces used to fit
This one’s of me, losing the way Feeling afraid
Please, there’s a better bit of me to see yet cause you haven’t seen any of my best
You know I hate myself without you now,yeah
Hurts the same when nobody knows guess that’s just how it goes And I, I won’t say anything at all
September won’t you bring me some rain again? This sun is melting my skin And I would give you anything to feel something else
From the scrapes and bruises To the familiar abuses I’ll kick and scream but it never changes anything I could spill my guts out Wearing my best little girl pout And I almost missed it But nobody said that this was gonna be easy
And the guilt in me is the hurt in you And the hurt in you is the lost in me And the lost in me is the need in you And the need in you is the guilt in me
I think the problem here is there’s nothing wrong
You got here just in time to see everything fall apart
I’m used to starving out instead It’s easier than faking it Sometimes it hurts but That’s no worse than all those times
I’m always on my knees for you You break like it’s even When you’re leaving it
Thin, where the hell have you been?
It only hurt a bit I still feel like shit And I think you won’t be able to recognize me now It’s easier to quit It’s harder to admit and You’re pushing me, you’re fucking pushing me!
Remember all the ways you fixed me? How will you fix me now?
I remain so lost and buried under everything I need When all I want is you
You’re beautiful, can I hide in you awhile?
I don’t want to be the bad guy, I’ve been blaming myself and I think you know why. I’m killing time, and time’s killing you Every way that I do.
This isn’t what I wanted, but I can’t keep my filthy fucking mouth shut. It’s not enough, it’s never enough. I wish I could breathe without getting it stuck.
My bag is ripped and worn Then again now so am I
And I do want to show you I will run to you to you till I Can’t stand on my own anymore
When your tears are spent on your last pretense And your tired eyes refuse to close and sleep in your defense.
Ran out of gas on the highway we walked there and I gave drunken speeches on sobriety
Hush now they’ll hurt you till your heart melts They know you’re lonely And they will only break your heart And this masterpiece will tear you apart
You just need me to be stable But I won’t be able To keep it together again Now don’t pretty please me Do not make it that easy to slow me down
It’s no wonder I’m not eating I’m not sleeping You say Sing, sing to me Sing me something I need Sing new, sing good God I wish that I could
Are you hearing me now? Hear the sad little sounds as they fall from my mouth
And now I do want you to know I hold you up above everyone. And now I do want you to know I think you’d be good to me And I’d be so good to you
Trading in who I’ve been for shiny celebrity skin I like to push it and push it until my luck is over.
If the point is to never disappoint you, Somebodies got to tell me what to do. Just wish you could’ve seen me When it used to come so easy. I like to say it’s easy to stay But it’s not for me, Cause I’m barely here at all.
What you want, what you need has been killing me. Try to be everything that you want me to be. I say yes, I’ll undress,I’ll do more for less. Now I’ll change everything till it’s perfect again. I think it’s better this way, This is good in a bad way.
Sometimes I wish you would leave me. Well, I’m not sick of you yet, is that as good as it gets?
All my indecisions, all of my excess, Don’t you ever tell me I’m not loving you best
I spoke to you In cautious tones You answered me with no pretense And still I feel I said to much My silence is my self defense
You say I would make a better liar And never face the music when it’s dire And I breathe disaster,ever after Don’t pull away from me now
Testing, testing, I’m just suggesting, You and I might not be the best thing,
I know that I remember you I think that you remember me too How can one of us still feel blessed when the other one’s lost I know you’ve got to feel the change It just gets worse when it stays the same
Have a piece of American dream Open up, and swallow, on your knees And say “Thank you” I’d like some desperate measures, please
It’s alright if you don’t know what you need
The more that I push And the more you resist It’s easy to say it’s for the best When you want more While you leave me with less
And I’m begging you, Bring me back to life, I just can’t stand leaving you alone tonight.
I deserve a little more Wouldn’t you say?
I will love you like goodbye I will love you like you died, died A martyr for me
You say you want someone just like me So then Why am I your plan B?
Why can’t you just be lonely? I know you need someone too This just feels so soon
There’s no… yellow bricks to follow back and run from that disaster. Familiar sins come crashing in And sever forever and after
Don’t tell me to fight. Fight for you. After this long I shouldn’t have to.